"yoga is the dance between yes and no."
Last week, I had to make a tough decision to let go of something; to say no.
I had been wrestling with this decision for a while. I didn't have a back-up plan. I didn't have something to fill the space that I would be creating. But still, without fully understanding why, I felt the urge to create space.
The other day I watched a video of Elizabeth Gilbert (author of Eat, Pray, Love) and her husband. They announced in the video that they were closing down a shop they owned together after many years of success. They seemed to love that shop, but just felt like it was time to move on. And one of the most striking things to me about this video, is that they openly admitted they had no idea what they were doing next...and were overjoyed about it! They hadn't formulated their perfect plan to move on, they just knew that it was time for a space to be created in their lives. They decided to put their trust in that space; that the space itself would guide them to their next adventure.
Sometimes, saying "no" does not mean an opportunity to say "yes" is right around the corner. Maybe sometimes saying "no" means that you are creating space between the "no" and the next "yes". And for whatever reason, you need that space. That space is calling you, and it's asking you to nurture it. To move within it. To be in it.
Sometimes that space is necessary in order to receive what you need.
So this is what I felt like I needed to do in my life. I have no clue how things will pan out. I have no idea where the next opportunity will come from, or if it will. I don't know where this space will lead me, if it will be a smooth transition or a bumpy one. What I do know is this: I will be okay.
And let me just say that I didn't go and quit all of my jobs, and I'm not saying anyone should. It was definitely a mini leap of faith for me! I'm still providing for myself, and I'm still moving forward in pursuing my passions. But in this mini leap of faith, I'm finding myself in that dance between "yes" and "no". I'm so grateful to be here - in this dance; this yoga - and I'm putting my trust in this space.